Sleepless in Greensburg

I know life can’t always be easy, and pleasant, and even sensible.  But some days it just seems tough.  I try to keep my posts light-hearted and upbeat, and mostly that is genuinely how I feel.  But this has been a rough week – and it’s only Wednesday morning!  I have felt like Christian in Pilgrim’s Progress, with my backpack full of rocks.

Admittedly most of those rocks we put in the backpack ourselves; deciding that we will lug them around when we have the option of turning everything over to God to handle.  But even though God will handle any issues, there are times when we do NOT choose the rocks – someone else puts them in.  I think it’s often harder to let the rocks behind when we are holding anger or frustration towards someone who caused our anguish.

I considered a walk at 2:55am, when I was tossing and turning.  The moon was bright enough to tempt me, but I couldn’t make myself get dressed.  Instead, I opted for a few games of computer solitaire and reading old emails.  I even read a chapter in the book I’m reading – a Civil War time-travel sort of story, which I am really enjoying.  That helped but I couldn’t sleep.  I think my fitbit said 3 hours 55 minutes of sleep….  Alas….

BUT!   You cannot let yourself get down so low that it consumes you — as my dad would say, you have to take off your shoes to brush your teeth.  So I will be like Anne  (of Green Gables) and say that it is a new day – with no mistakes in it, even ones that I don’t make myself!  I cannot change some (most???) of the things that will happen today, but I can change how I deal with it and what my attitude is.  So Anne-girl, here we go.  It’s a wild ride, but we have lots of people to make us smile and one Friend in particular who will carry the rocks, if we let Him.

Have a blessed day!!!